Relations - Time is the Controller

Its not in my control

Nor is in your

Any relation that thrives

Just depends on time

The feelings grow or lessen

The recognition rises or falls

The likeliness changes grades

And the fondness shows shades

All the things in a relation

Mature or go through Dilution

But calling things Beyond Time

Is not worth a single Dime

Its only the feeling of true love 

that stands through the Shades of time, 

and 

its only the true love 

that stands the tests of time.

For My Sweetheart (To Be)

Here I am writing few words that I think I would be prefer to recite to my sweetheart (to be J) They are not related to anyone whom I know in person J

Today I thought to express

My Feeling that I often suppress

But think being a novice

My emotions lacked that spice

I never knew how to bow

For my Love for thee to Show

So when I came over on thy side

Hardly I knew the rules to abide

In the process thee got hurt

And I hit the rough & dirt

Hence I sat to write

To make thy smile a little bright

Please read this full

Before thee think it’s void and null

I feel for thee is for sure

My Love is tender and Pure

I hope the words do convey

Without getting thee to dismay

I Love thee, I want thee to know

For thy Love I now Bow

Soul

गुजारीश वफ़ा-ए-सनम से

गुजारिश आज आपसे है ऐ सनम
दे सको तो देना खुशी न देना गम
कि गम का समंदर होता बहुत गहरा है
माझी तो छोडिये साहिल तक डूब जाता है

कि गम-ऐ-उल्फत में हम ना जी सकेंगे
तेरी तनहाई में जाम भी ना पी सकेंगे
कि पैमाना भी जब उठाते हैं
कमबख्त उसमें भी तेरा अक्स नज़र आता है

सोचते हैं कि धुंए में गम को छोड़ देंगे
लेकिन डर है कहीं धुएँ में तेरी तस्वीर ना नज़र आए
डर की दुनिया में हम कब तक जीते जाएंगे
क्या कभी तेरी बेवफाई से निजात पा सकेंगे

अब गर चाहत ये है ऐ सनम
कि ना रुसवा हो हमारी मोहब्बत
और ना कहे ये दुनिया हमें दीवाना
तो दे मुझे अपनी मोहब्बत कि खुशी

गुजारिश यही है तुझसे ऐ सनम
दे सके तो देना खुशी ना देना गम
कि गम के साए में बेजार होगी ज़िन्दगी
बेआबरू होंगे हम और बेवफा कहलोगी तुम

गुजारिश

तुझे चाहने की सज़ा पाता हूँ
तेरे ही गम में अपना लहू जलाता हूँ
ना चाहते हुए भी अक्सर तेरे अक्स में
मैं अपनी रौशनी ढूंढें जाता हूँ
रोशनाई कहीँ कम ना पडे
ये सोच के अपने लहू से
मैं ये नज़्म लीखे जाता हूँ
गुजारीश करता हूँ आपसे आज
ना ही करो रुसवा यूं मेरी चाहत को
ना झुकाओ पलकें यूं
भर नफ़रत नीगाहों में
और यही इल्तजा है आज ए सनम
की मरहम बन इस नासूर-ए-दिल का
ले आगोश में लावारीस मेरी इस लाश को
सुकून मीलेगा मेरी रूह को तेरे साथ से
की जीते जी तेरा साथ ना मिल तो क्या
मर कर तेरा साया जो नसीब हुआ

Will Wait be Ever Over?

Does Wait ever get over? The thoughts as they hit me at this hour today the 22^nd June 2007 at the Hyderabad airport waiting for my flight and listening to Music touching my soul – Read On –

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When I was a kid, I waited

Waited for parents to permit

Waited for teachers to permit

Waited all the time

I waited along

For myself to grow up

When I stepped in college

I waited

Waited for my exams

Waited for the semester to be over

I waited all along

For myself to be ready for job

When I stepped in the Job

I waited, waited yet again

Waited for my projects

Waited for my appraisals

I always waited

For me to reach home

Once I got married

I still waited, waited long

Waited for time to rest

Waited for my kids

And I waited

Waited for Kids to grow up

Now at the fag end of life

I sit with my love my wife

Holding her hand in my hand

Sitting on the Sea shore sand

Just waiting once again

Waiting for the Final Call

Mayank

Just Trying to Reach You

In my daily life

I do a lot

I do a lot to live

I do a lot to survive

But at the end of the day

When I come back home

All my efforts are concentrated

To

Just Reach You

दिल की कलम से

किसी ने कभी सही कहा था...
कि दीखता है मंजर असली
बजते हैं साज़ सारे...
जब छेड़ दो तार दिल के
नहीं मालुम क्यों....
तुमने आवाज़ दी ...
और हम रो दिए ....
आंसुओं की जगह कलम से
कागज़ पर ये
शब्द बिखेर दिए ...

Is it Love

When I see you in the night
Your face twinkling in dim light
Your arms folded as cross
And your eyes gazing across

Stood there totally mesmerized
As in your beauty I dived
I got plunged in the depth
That in your eyes I crept

As you turned towards me
I went weak in my knee
Lost as I was in my thoughts
Felt as if I was a caught

As you walked in my direction
I saw the marvelous creation
The creation that's so perfect
Not even for God to object

The so perfect pair of eyes
The so perfect pair of lips
The so perfect flow of skin
The so perfect flow of hair

Whenever I see you around
It seems to be the surround
Surround of the nature
Surround of Beauty

Is this nothing but the Sign
the Sign for my love
My Love for you
or
Its plainly the Sign
that
Am falling in Love

Waiting for You

Here I am waiting for you
This wait is somehow not new
I have waited with patience
Because I know the essence
Essence of your Love
O'my Sweet Dove

In past I tried looking around
On the sky and on the ground
Even bent my knee
To look in the sea
Tried to smell in the air
To get a feel of your Hair

It seems that you are hiding
On my feelings you are riding
Please come out of your den
My heart skips now and then
With my age on the of knife
It seems nearing End of Life

---------Signing off with a hope---------
To see you soon
Before I see my life's last moon

Why But Why

Why don't you recall the time
Why don't you just keep rhyme
Why don't you sit and relax
Why don't you put aside the Axe

All this time I saw
Your anger has been raw
Raw with your honesty
Just like a clan a dynasty

If it just were my fault
It would have been a jolt
But then Don't blam me
cause am not going on my knee

It was more of the situation
That went through a sensation
I should not given an explanation
But am sufering from exhaution

Why are you doing all this
Forgetting the time of bliss
I might have hurt your pride
But I was always by your side

You need to understand this
Am not giving any chance a miss
I want all this to end
No more words to ever Bend

Let live in Peace and Harmony
To taste frinedship's Honey
You are just a wonderful Person
Be it spring or winter season

I just fail to understand -
Why are you playing trumpet Band..??

In the Meanwhile

Looking for you at the door
From life not asking for more
I would just sit tight
Waiting for moment just right

Now that I am free for issue
Waiting for you is my every tissue
I hope you on your Way
To meet me one fine Day

Life has been on a stand still
From the day you changed your will
Wait has been the work on me
Am here down on my knee

If you would not meet me here
I would ensure to be there
Test of patience is too High
Blood in my Heart is to Dry

Please come back to my life
To be my soul and my wife
For me this is the only way
Remembering that day of May

The Way You Walk

When I see thee around
Walking on the ground
My heart almost jumps
Heartbeat just thumps

When thy hips move and sway
My eyes just stick to the way
Looking at thy awesome curves
Blood rushes through nerves

With thy foot claps approaching
Heat of moment goes scorching
When you cross my seat
Our heads node and eyes meet

When thee pass on the smile
That takes me several miles
Intoxicating is thy fragrance
Full of Eroticism and romance

Thee just ignite Love for thee
With the way thy walk past me
That walk and those looks
Seem to me tenterhooks

I shall always pray
For that lovely sway
Cause its mesmerizing
and tantalizing

The Way You Walk

To My Love

From the depth of the Ocean
to the length of the Sky
From the brightness of Sun
to the Darkness of Night

I was searching for you
Though I always knew
Where did you go
Still wanted to know

Now that you are here
I request you to hear
What I am gonna tell
Might give us a spell

If you can spare time
Or if can spend a dime
It would be really nice
To re-roll the Dice

You know what I mean
With my heart as Clean
I beg you to be there
My grave is dug where

Welcome Back

The World

Around in this World
We just look for a Girl
A Girl to Fit our Dreams
A Girl to Love our Grins
A Girl to Hold our Hand
A Girl to Blow our Band
A Girl to Hug and Kiss
In Her absense to Miss

I am also single and looking
With my life grining and mocking
Though have and Open Booking
For the place in my Heart
But you never saw that feeling
In my heart that's reeling
With these words I let you know
In the name of Love I now Bow

Come and accept my love
You are my Darling my Dove
I ask you to me my life
Be with me as my wife
You love me tell me that
Make my day an immortal date
Listen to me one last time
Let your Yes be the wind Chime

Waiting here I am for your Word

The Walk and The Wind

Walking togather on beach
With your hand in mine,
Under the moonlit sky
Your face has that shine

The mild bustling Wind
Making your hair flow
Reflecting moonlit from sea
Making your face to glow

The shine of your face
The glow in your eyes
The charm in your voice
All making me to say

I want to Say something with my might
While my heart is going low in plight
Looking at your smile makes me shy
I want to speak but my throat is dry

I just put my mouth
Right close to your ears
And whisper through
The sound of waves

Don't go away ever from me
I beg you while down on my knee
I love you is all I would say
I propose you this evening of May.......

Please Come Back

Going beyond the times
where my memory rhymes
I go back to past
that's beautiful and vast

I remember whent it strikes nine
You were with me all mine
Your Face full of Glow and Shine
Our heart and Soul were all align

But the same old story of destiny
Which once again went on mutiny
Step child as treated it me always
Sends me and you on different ways

I never want you to get hurt
For that I am ready to hit dirt
To see your face filled with smiles
I am ready to cover all the miles

If you think I am the reason
For your heart to pain
I Appologize to you
For your Love is my gain

I request you not to go
For this in front of you
On my knees I bow
Once more to Say



I LOVE YOU

Remembering the Times

Do you remember the first time
You saw me and smiled
Do you remember the first time
We met for coffee and spoke
Do you remember the first time
We held hands and Walked

Those were the sweetest moment
I spent with you
And those were the moments
I carried forward with me
Dunno on which turn of the life
You left me and just left me alone

Trying to Forget

Today I am at a stage
Where I feel am in cage
In a cage of your love
In a cage of your memories

Looking around myself
I only find to be in shelf
In the Shelf of your aura
In the Shelf of your Charms

Is it just nostalgic
or is it your magic
Dunno if this moment
is sad or tragic

Whatever it is
It keeps me haunting
I try to forget, but
My Heart keeps Waiting

And its waiting for you
You know its nothing new
It's my love for you
That's as fresh as

Drop of Morning dew

Straight From the Heart

In the Darkness of Night
Under the moonlit sky
Watching the Stars
With my heart
Full of Agony and Plight
I was thinking of you
Looking Beyond
The frame of time

Was searching for you
In the Darkness
Was searching for you
In the Moonlight
Was searching for you
In the twinkling stars
With my heart drown deep
In Agony and Plight

But you were gone
for once and for all
All away from me
lost in the time's sea
What is that drove you away
If you had to go
Why You made a castle
Of Sand and clay

In Search

One fine day walked out of home
Just to take a walk and rome
Not knowing my destination
I crossed many civilization

Sat under a lonely hood
In the middle of a dense wood
Slept in the lap of Land
Under the open sky's star Band

Covered with denim jeans
Clueless of what my act means
I just wandered around
With the nature's surround

Why I did this you want to know
I would tell for your face to glow
It was just almost out of blue
That I went In Search of You

Thinking of You

Staring at the stars
Through the gushing winds
In the middle of the night
With all my might

I was thinking of you
and
Was thinking of the time
I spent with you

This turbulence in my life
Was not sudden or spiked
It was always building up
From when you disappeared

Last night was the height
When thoughts gave to Plight
Because
Your Voice still makes that Mark

In my Life

So What if I love you

What if I love you
for the simplicity in you
for the mischiviousness in you
for the depth in your eyes
for the dimples in your cheek
for the sweetness in your talk
for the sway in your walk
for the beauty of your Soul
for the lovely smile on your face
for the intriguing looks
for your love of the books

So what if I love you
for the gem of person you are
You don't have to love me back
Cause I just love you
for what you are
and
the confidence that oozes
from your Body Language

Please don't love me cause I love you
Please don't lvoe me for money I spend on you
Please don't love me for attention I give you
Please don't love me for anything but
My Honesty and my truthfulness
Everything else in me is void to guess

Seasons

While the Rain was Falling, My Heart was Calling And its you, my Love, for whom it was Yelling Scorching Sun, Wild Hot Winds Summer's peak, Ocean's Creek O Sweetheart, O darling won't you speak? Summer's passed, Springs gone Still, My heart is, all Alone Shivering Winter cold, makes your figure Bold, in my heart Autumn's High, Baby's cry, Trees Sigh for their leaves dry Without you Baby, Trust me, I'll Die Season Come, Come and Go My heart Beats, Beats High and Low When shall we meet, never to retreat From our walk for love and future

Significance of Tear

Used to wonder always
why do we cry?
why these tears roll down?
from where, do they come in eyes?

tried looking for an answer
in every nook and corner
but then could not find
even in the sharpest mind

then one day I forgot
to hit my meeting spot
called my darling from her walk
straight she was on the point to talk

I reached there only to see
She was crying waiting for me
I just held her in my arms
trying to cajole her with my charms

I was trembling and in fear
when I caught hold of her tear
I asked tear about its origin
hear the story of tear begin

tear told me the whole show
while jumping high and low
then the tear said
and my wait paid

Below is how the tear told me the story am putting it the way tear told me. Here you go -

Tear -

Here is something you should know
in front of your luck I bow
its for your presence I go
cause you sink in heart too low
you displace me from my home
I can go anywhere even to rome
I give you all my wishes
to be togather till you are ashes

Kissing Tale

In the middle of the night

Dunno was it wrong or right

thought a lot to find

tried a lot and scratched my mind

For with her lips on mine

shiver was there in my spine

she was very gentle and kind

with her hair she put a blind

With the kiss that was on

all my senses were lost and gone

the world came still on hold

as the kiss grew bold and bold

Lips parted with a twist of toungue

curatin on window no more hung

with the wind of passion that was blowing

it let the moon light make her face glowing

I loved that kiss to my heart

her aim was right on the dart

when we departed from that embrace

for me life had a all new face

Kiss N Tell

Two pairs of lips that look fine

when you put your on mine

the way our toungues mingle

its seems tour souls are single

the thought sends a shiver down me..

the way I feel all weak in the knee

That kiss was felt not only by my lips..

but through my body, as if I had couple of nips

Jut Coz I Love You

I need not be fined

Just coz I love you

I need not be pulled up

Just coz I love you

I need not be hauled up

Just coz I love you

I need not be jailed

Just coz I love you

I need not be ignored

Just coz I love you

I just need to be attended

and

That too only by you

For all my wounds

that I got

Just coz I love you

Life's Full Circle

Many of us complain to life complain a lot about life, but why? Why don't we see that Life comes once only... and moments in life are to be cherished....Complaining about life doesn't help because the energy and the time we waste in complaining about the Life and cribbing about the things that went wrong can be very well utilised to identify where were we wrong, wrong to have come across such situations.... We need to remember one thing that Life also has follows the Rule of Gravitational Pull....Whatever we give out comes back to us in one or other form....Life comes once but the moments in life at times repeat and the moments are interrelated in one or other way...thus completing the circle of Life...the vicious Circle.... Life's beautiful - For those who know Hindi / Urdu - Kyon karein shiqwa shikayat zindagi se.. Milega wahi jo hai naseeb mein... parwar digar ki inemat hai... ki tumko mile ek haseen zindagi... na bahao aansoon apne na dekho bekar ke sapne.... ____ aur mujhe koi shikwa nahin hai zindagi se..... khush hun mein apne is chote jahan mein.... gar shikwa bhi kiya to kya..... mera gujara waqt laut aayega?

Meaning of Life

Forever I pondered

What is Life

Searched a Lot

What is Life

Searched in the Books,

Searched in Religion,

Searched in the Sea,

Searched in the Ocean,

Searched a Lot,

In every nook and corner

Of this World,

Then got to know one day

That too in my Dream,

When Life visited me

And told me

That it stands for

Love Is For Ever

एक नज़्म तन्हाई पर

तन्हाई का आलम मुझे हर कहीँ घेर लेता हैं

भीड़ में भी तनहां होने का गुमां होता है

की तनहां आये हैं, तनहां ही चले जाना है,

फीर भी तनहां रहने से दिल बेजाँ परेशां क्यों है

तन्हाई का आलम मुझे हर कहीँ घेर लेता है

भीड़ में भी तन्हाई का गुमां होता है

वो पूछते हैं की तन्हाई में क्या रक्खा है

नादां हैं वो क्या जाने

की तन्हाई के साए में हमारा दिल रक्खा है

दर्दे दिल का एक तस्सव्वुर रक्खा है

की तन्हा आये हैं, तन्हा ही चले जाएंगे

फीर तन्हा रहने से दिल बेजाँ परेशां क्यों है

Wars - They Destroy More

I am one proud soldier

With armour on shoulder

Sitting in the calm

Looking at my palm

Distinct from the crowd

Just feeling li'l proud

I was drowned in my thought

On the war that were fought

The thought of war cry

Always make me feel shy

Shy as my job is to kill

Against my own very will

But to guard nation's grace

And to suppress enemy's craze

We need to just fight

With all of our might

But what does a war give

It just is cause to peeve

peeve the human race

And to hurt God's grace

It just destroys the meadows

Add to the orphans and widow's

It's hardly someone's gain

But sure to be a mass pain

So why impose a war on population

That to just to mar civilization

Civilization of Love and Humanity

With the divine bliss of Serenity

I just fail to understand

The cause and the stand

That the rulers have to take

For what decisions do they make

---------Signing off---------

With a hope to Kill

In my own Will

Will to kill the reason

and

Eradicate the War Season